Seeing the Light

“Capturing the Light”

Sometimes Mother Nature just doesn’t cooperate.

Autumn in Buffalo, New York can be so beautiful.  Every work day I drive down city streets lined with colorful fall foliage.  There’s one section of Winspear Avenue that absolutely takes my breath away, even on cloudy days.  But every day recently, it’s been rainy, cold and gloomy during my morning and evening commute, and even though I carry my little Olympus camera with me, that camera doesn’t do well in low light.  And then, there’s the fact that I recently “cleaned” my windshield and didn’t do a particularly good job of it.  Sure, I could stop the car and get out to take a photograph, but it’s the daily commute and I really just want to get to either work (in the morning) or back home (in the evening).

On days I’m not working, the weather’s been better, but hey, since I’m not working I don’t feel inclined to get up, dress, and drive to Winspear Avenue on my days off.

Such a dilemma.

Add in the fact that I’ve been feeling somewhat depressed recently about my photographic ability.  No one seems to like my recently posted photos, and everyone else seems to be so much more talented.  In fact, there’s one guy on one of my photographic sites who constantly seems to copy my photos – I’ll post a particular scene, and then shortly thereafter he’ll post his own version of that scene (often using the same types of props and staging, if it’s an indoor still-life I’ve tried to create), and his photos are 3 times better than mine.  Every time.

So, if no one likes my work anyway, why bother?  It’s cold, gloomy, and damp – and it’s still the pandemic.  I don’t feel like going out on photo shoots.  I don’t even feel like finding household objects to stage for still-life photos (heck, that guy will only copy those shots and do better at it anyway).

But then – for whatever reason, I decided to check my Pixsy site report.  Pixsy tracks its members’ photos and lets the photographers know if any of those photos have been picked up and used elsewhere.  This provides for some protection against copyright infringement, should any photos be used commercially.

My photos are all are posted under Creative Commons licensing, but I never paid much attention since, heck, no one was looking at them anyway, right?

“Broken”

Pixsy says otherwise.  Several of my photos  have, in fact, been chosen and used under Creative Commons licensing, with the proper credit and link-backs.  Back in February, Wisconsin Public Radio chose my “Broken” photo!  Out of the thousands of photos of broken tree branches shown on Flickr.com, WPR chose mine!

Maybe it’s time to re-think things.  Just because the more professional photographers on Flickr.com and YouPic.com probably scoff at my artistic non-talent, does that mean my work is worthless?  Perhaps not.  Perhaps my appeal is more mundane.  Perhaps, like my writing, I appeal to ordinary folks like myself.  Those photos of mine that were picked up from Flickr.com then appeared mostly on blogs just like mine.

It makes me feel good.

Having reached this new height of self-love, I decided it was time to “just take the damn photos already.”

Here’s Winspear Avenue after the rain on a gloomy autumn morning on my way to work:

“Gloomy Fall in the City”

Perhaps others will enjoy that view, even if I couldn’t wait for a nice, sunny day.

And, finally, since I had the camera with me during Cody’s evening walk, I took the photo at the head of this post, as well as this photo of a willow tree near the Maryvale High School:

“Light Through the Willow”

Sometimes you just need to find a little light through the dimness.

Enjoy the upcoming weekend, folks.

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Anticipation, Still

This post popped up as a two-year memory on my Facebook page, and I decided it’s too cute not to share.  Enjoy!

(PS – the ugly orange kitchen floor and disgusting chocolate baseboard have since been replaced, the neon yellow wall painted over, and the dirty brown carpet has been removed, leaving hardwood floors covered by area rugs.)

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Ooooo … mmmmmm … is that BACON?

Can I have some?  Please?  I’ll be good. I’ll be soooo good!

See me being good? Just like a statue!  Ignore that waggy thing behind me, I have no control over it.

But I’m sooo good.  Can’t you see how good I am?  I’m the goodest dog ever!

See me sitting?  Such a good sit!

Can I have bacon now?  Can I?  Can I?

Thank you!  Thank you!

Yummmmmmmm.

Can I have more?

I promise no poopies in the house.

No?  Well, can I have something else?

You got eggs there.  Can I have some eggs?

No?  But I haven’t eaten in days.

Oh, I forgot that you fed me already.  But I’m still hungry. I’m always hungry!

Can I have eggs?  Can I have more bacon?  How about some of that pastry?

No? Ok, just hugs then.

Hugs!  And pets! I love hugs and pets!  Give me more hugs and pets!

You’re the bestest Mom ever!

[contented sigh]  What a workout!  I think I’ll just quietly lie here under the table and wait for lunch.  Is lunch coming soon?

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UGH – The day has come.

“Fall Up”

Looks like I won’t be able to post any more. WordPress has forced me into the new block editor, and I can’t figure it out. Damn WordPress.

[ten minutes later, blood pressure up, heart fluttering]

Ok.  I did figure out how to start in block editor, then save, and then edit with the classic editor.  Finally, I was able to actually insert a photo.  Every time I want to save or further edit, I get a notation asking me if I really want to use classic editor.  So annoying.

But I shouldn’t have to go through all that, and really I don’t need the extra stress right now.

I was about 30 seconds away from simply deleting my WordPress account and demanding refund of my plan pre-payment.  I would miss all of you.

Let me repeat:  Damn WordPress.

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Old[er] Age

The day started off wonderfully.

I had just gone to a 3-day work week, with Thursday and Friday as my off days.  This particular Thursday, the late-summer weather was absolutely gorgeous, and I was well rested.  I did three loads of laundry, then went for a much-needed haircut – to a great new stylist close to home, who didn’t charge a fortune for a simple cut.  On the way home, I drove through the car wash.  Once home, I cleaned the dashboard and windows in my car, and then took Puppy Cody into the yard to enjoy the sunshine.  The neighbors’ kids entertained Cody by throwing frisbees over the fence for her.  Having now had plenty of exercise, and having done her “business”, Cody was tuckered out – she would not need that daily evening walk.  And since I had been feeling sluggish and having some trouble walking any distance lately, that was just fine with me.

Hubby was still at work, and my chores were done.  Although I had breakfast at 7:30 am, I had no real interest in lunch.  So, I sat at my computer browsing the web and playing videogames.  Long ’bout 4:30 p.m., I started to feel a bit weird and figured it was hunger, so I grabbed a single slice of American cheese.

Hubby came home about 4:45 p.m.  When I stood up, I felt a bit dizzy.  After awhile, the dizziness became worse and was now accompanied by some nausea, so I took an antihistamine/decongestant to combat that.

The medication didn’t help.  Then the vomiting started.  And I was down for the count.

When this situation hadn’t abated after an hour or more, hubby started asking if I wanted to “go somewhere” for help.  I refused.  Surely, things would settle down if only I stayed still.

So, I sat in bed in a dark room, but every time I moved, the nausea and vomiting returned.  I started taking sips of water and nibbling on saltines, and eventually the vomiting stopped, but the dizziness remained.  I even fell asleep for about 20 minutes, but upon waking, I simply didn’t feel right.

At that point, I gave up.  It was near 9:00 p.m. and we headed off to the emergency room.

Thank heavens, the COVID-19 rush has eased.  I was in a bed in the ER within 5 minutes, hooked up to monitors.  By the time I had arrived at the ER, my vomiting had stopped and the dizziness had dimmed to merely room-tilting whenever I stood up.  However, my blood pressure on arrival was 181/92!  Because of chest tightness and left-sided achiness, a chest x-ray and EKG were done, and I was given a tablet of nitroglycerine (I guess because I’m not explosive enough …).  It was agreed that I would be kept overnight so as to undergo a stress test and brain MRI in the morning.  At the end of the stress test, my blood pressure was 196/100 (“Bingo!“).

After all was said and done, it was determined that I had not had a heart attack, nor did I have a stroke.  It was merely a hypertensive crisis.  I came home from the hospital with a prescription for amlodipine, a blood pressure medication – a medication I had been avoiding for years despite borderline high blood pressure.  I had avoided it because I knew once on blood pressure medication, you can never simply stop it.  But now was not the time to worry about that.

I must say that despite being sick, the hospital experience wasn’t overly stressful.  All the nurses and doctors were caring and efficient; my hospital roommate was a very quiet lady about my age who kept her TV low enough that it could not be heard past her bed; and my primary doctor’s medical group has a policy whereby they use “hospitalists” to monitor patient care while in the hospital.  The hospitalist is a doctor, physician’s assistant, or nurse practitioner who only sees patients in the hospital, but communicates with the primary and any specialists who might be involved.

Having been given a brochure explaining hospitalist care while I was in the ER, I was a bit concerned that a hospitalist would be aloof and would do everything possible to get a patient out of the hospital no matter what, to decrease hospital costs.  But the opposite was true.  My hospitalist, a doctor, took great care to make sure I had whatever tests were needed, and took extensive time discussing my care with me.  She was comforting, professional, and personable.  My primary later told me that the hospitalist was in constant contact with him throughout my hospitalization.  And, I didn’t have to tolerate the daily doctor parade, otherwise known as morning rounds, since my hospitalist coordinated all care and communication between the medical professionals.

All in all, a good hospital experience.

Not that I ever want to do it again, of course.

To make a long story shorter, I’m home now and feeling 100% better.  After just a few days on my new blood pressure medication, I’m walking better and not feeling sluggish.  In fact, I no longer feel like that elderly, decrepit lady I’ve been for the last few months.  Guess I was sick after all and just didn’t realize it, or refused to acknowledge it.

The point of this story, if there is a point, is this:  If for some reason you simply aren’t feeling right, whether physically or mentally, perhaps it’s time to see a professional.  While no one wants to be labeled as a hypochondriac, ignoring symptoms seldom turns out well.

Happy Thursday, folks.  For me, it’s the start of the weekend already, and I intend to enjoy every minute of it.

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