… or at least re-absorbed.
When I created Not Cordelia’s Mom (a/k/a Not CM) in 2014, I felt like I was two different people: the calm, professional woman who could handle pretty much everything and who wrote Cordelia’s Mom, Still on the side, and the nasty, sarcastic not-so-grown-up little girl who just wanted everyone to leave her the hell alone already!
Cordelia’s Mom had an image to uphold – sweet, comforting, maternal, but I really didn’t feel that way much of the time. I needed an outlet for those days I felt overwhelmed, angry, just plain bitchy.
And so Not CM was born. Not CM could say things Cordelia’s Mom couldn’t – and did. Not CM garnered her very own cult following, which surprised the hell out of me. Why did so many people take to her? All I can think is that many people have hidden alter-egos which are crying for release, and people enjoyed seeing my alter-ego grow wings and fly.
But like many people, Not CM could not maintain that sarcasm and anger forever. Not CM’s insecurity and human-ness began to sneak into her posts.
After 32 posts, Not CM (um, I) simply ran out of steam. In the last nine months, there has not been a single issue – on Cordelia’s Mom, Still nor in my own personal life – which tempted me to write a Not CM post.
Maybe I’ve become less angry or less conflicted, or maybe I’ve simply learned to deal with issues better. Certainly, moving to a new home and then quitting my job made my entire life happier – and a happy woman cannot write as Not CM.
I’ve thought long and hard about continuing the Not CM character and have finally come to the conclusion that her time has passed.
Not CM is dead – may she rest in peace wherever in my psyche she resides.
I will not close the mirror blog. Since I wrote all those posts, I don’t have the heart to delete them, and heaven knows they’re still amusing as hell. Should you be so inclined, you can read them through the link on the sidebar.
Thank you to all those readers who were so loyal to the Not Cordelia’s Mom site. If it makes you feel any better, some of my future posts will likely be written by Not CM, or at least from her viewpoint, combining both sides of my personality, depending on which day it is.
In that vein, stay tuned for my upcoming satirical post on how things are working out in Cordelia’s Mom’s new neighborhood.
See you then.
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