… or at least re-absorbed.
When I created Not Cordelia’s Mom (a/k/a Not CM) in 2014, I felt like I was two different people: the calm, professional woman who could handle pretty much everything and who wrote Cordelia’s Mom, Still on the side, and the nasty, sarcastic not-so-grown-up little girl who just wanted everyone to leave her the hell alone already!
Cordelia’s Mom had an image to uphold – sweet, comforting, maternal, but I really didn’t feel that way much of the time. I needed an outlet for those days I felt overwhelmed, angry, just plain bitchy.
And so Not CM was born. Not CM could say things Cordelia’s Mom couldn’t – and did. Not CM garnered her very own cult following, which surprised the hell out of me. Why did so many people take to her? All I can think is that many people have hidden alter-egos which are crying for release, and people enjoyed seeing my alter-ego grow wings and fly.
But like many people, Not CM could not maintain that sarcasm and anger forever. Not CM’s insecurity and human-ness began to sneak into her posts.
After 32 posts, Not CM (um, I) simply ran out of steam. In the last nine months, there has not been a single issue – on Cordelia’s Mom, Still nor in my own personal life – which tempted me to write a Not CM post.
Maybe I’ve become less angry or less conflicted, or maybe I’ve simply learned to deal with issues better. Certainly, moving to a new home and then quitting my job made my entire life happier – and a happy woman cannot write as Not CM.
I’ve thought long and hard about continuing the Not CM character and have finally come to the conclusion that her time has passed.
Not CM is dead – may she rest in peace wherever in my psyche she resides.
I will not close the mirror blog. Since I wrote all those posts, I don’t have the heart to delete them, and heaven knows they’re still amusing as hell. Should you be so inclined, you can read them through the link on the sidebar.
Thank you to all those readers who were so loyal to the Not Cordelia’s Mom site. If it makes you feel any better, some of my future posts will likely be written by Not CM, or at least from her viewpoint, combining both sides of my personality, depending on which day it is.
In that vein, stay tuned for my upcoming satirical post on how things are working out in Cordelia’s Mom’s new neighborhood.
See you then.
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May she rest in pieces 😱💜
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Thanks, Willow. I know you understand. We’ll need to find a way to have Vlad help Puppy Cody in another forum. It was fun, though, wasn’t it?
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I absolutely loved it fun break from serious stuff! Vlad is sinking a few pints of blood in NCM’sM honour! 💜💜💜
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We’re here for you, and you, too. 😉 Good choice, CM.
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Thanks, Mark. I’m been wondering if it was the right decision – I feel like I committed murder, or at least character assassination 🙂 .
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Things do change, you know? We do get less angry. Happier. More content. I look at how I felt about life five years ago and now … such a HUGE difference. Time has a way with us and sometimes, it’s a good thing 🙂
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Thank you, Marilyn. I was feeling just a wee bit guilty about being too happy to write as a toxic personality. You made me feel better.
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Congratulations on feeling un-grumpy! Does that leave the field open for me?? 😳
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You’ve always had the entire field when it comes to grumpiness, G.O.D. But I suspect some of my future posts as Cordelia’s Mom may have a bit more grumpiness in them.
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Congratulations on both recognizing that her time is done, and on letting her go gracefullyT
Love and Hugs in this more happy place 🙂
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Thank you, Karen. Not to say that she won’t reincarnate at some point, but at least for now she’s gone, gone, gone.
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I’ll miss her. I liked her for some reason 🤔😉.
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She did have a certain way about her. Judging from the number of followers she managed to glean all by herself, apparently quite a few people sympathized with her.
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Reblogged this on HarsH ReaLiTy and commented:
I’ll miss that banter. 😄 -OM
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Thanks for the re-blog, Jason. That’s certainly one way to keep an outdated character from dying completely!
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Sounds like you acknowledged and embraced her. You allowed her free reign thus minimizing her power and presence. That which we fight we give power. I’m sure she’s still around, just less influential. Greta post, I kind of wish I had been here sooner. Followed to link from OM
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Thank you. All the original posts are over on the Not CM site if you want to catch up. And thanks for joining me on this site. I suspect Not CM will eventually find her way into posts here.
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