Sure, I’ve been trying to get into the spirit of the holidays. I did go out and get the gifts and the cards, and I did make plans for attending and/or hosting events like Christmas Eve for the whole family at my youngest daughter’s house and Christmas dinner for my husband, mother-in-law and middle daughter at our house.
I even had hubby buy the special Christmas breakfast ingredients, despite the fact that it will probably be just hubby and me for breakfast.
But my heart just isn’t in it this year. I’m so very tired. The new job is sucking the life out of me, and I’m feeling trapped because there are so few other opportunities in this area for people my age – and I still have a few years before I can retire.
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I couldn’t even bring myself to put up the tree or any of the decorations this year. It just didn’t seem worth it.
And now I’m sick again. Hey, folks, don’t get all worried – it’s just another sinus thing going on, but with my suppressed immunity due to the Remicade treatments, I’m having a hard time overcoming the virus. I’ve been fighting it for more than a week.
Today, I got up, got dressed for work, ate a little breakfast, took Cody out – and then realized I wasn’t going anywhere. Absolutely not. No way. No how. Driving would be dangerous and incredibly stupid.
And so, I called off from my new job – for the first time ever – and went back to bed.
Today will be a day for sleeping or watching movies while under the bedcovers, drinking hot lemon tea, munching crackers, and hugging the dog. Tomorrow I will drag myself back into the office somehow. Fortunately it’s the last work day before Christmas and it will be a short, hopefully not too stressful, day – normal work morning, but then the office holiday lunch from noon to 2, and the office closes at 3. The office will be closed on Monday for Christmas.
Hopefully, I can make it through tomorrow. Then I have a whole 3 days before I have to face the office grief again.
Maybe a weekend with my family is all that I need. Family makes everything better, doesn’t it?
Merry Christmas, everyone. I may or may not post between now and Christmas. My post on Christmas Day will be a re-blog – and it’s going to be one that will make many of you laugh and cry at the same time. Be sure to check it out.
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